I am not a small sized girl. Never have been, never will be. I know that trying to look like a typical small sized, delicately boned Asian is something that I really shouldn't aspire for. Cos it's impossible.

Nothing about me from the top of my head to the tip of my toes are of the 'right' size in the Asian (note: Singaporean mostly) context. My chest is too big (sideways AND frontways. Talk about rubbing salt into my raw wound!), my tummy seems to be growing (and I am NOT pregnant), my hips are too wide, my thighs are too thunderous and my feet are too big.

Most things listed above I suppose I can try to deal with thru proper dieting and exercise so I shall not touch on that. But who can help how big their feet are?

I have to buy new shoes for my new job since I no longer own any black court shoes. My jobs in Phuket have never required me to wear court shoes so I depended on strappy heels. But not anymore!

So now I have to buy black court shoes and that has been an ardous task. With all this talk about Singapore being a shopping paradise, one would think that it would be relatively easy to find shoes for myself. Especially seeing the growing number of expatriates and tourists we get every year. Boy, was I wrong.

And I'm not even trying to scrimp and save and not willing to pay for a good pair of shoes (I have friends who do say I am cheap. Not denying but only a little bit stingylah.). Even I realise that I will be on my feet all day so a good pair of shoes is very important and I was very willing to pay for the comfort.

Let's just say that I didn't even need to bother thinking about comfort level. Went out to town with Fran just to go look for shoes and we couldn't find a single pair that was in the right size.

NOT A SINGLE ONE!

And I wasn't even trying to be picky. I asked for the size of almost every single black court shoes I saw. And the biggest size they could come up with was a measly 8! Including Americaya, the supposedly ANG MOH brand (so ppl think should have ang moh size. Pooi ah! Fat chance!)

After a full day of nothing, it was starting to feel ridiculous. I can't find a SINGLE pair of shoes that fit me! Felt like Prince Charming looking for Cinderella except that I keep meeting unsuitable Cinderellas and can't find that one good shoe! ARGH!

It's very unhealthy when shopping is no longer therapeautic. I can no longer enjoy any form of retail therapy because now that I am back in Singapore, things either cost too much or they don't fit me. Having been away for 2 years and having such a fun time shopping in Sweden had made me forget just how tortorous shopping had been in Singapore.

Back to life...back to reality. What a bummer.